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Thursday, March 11th 2010

4:20 PM

Low Expectations...? I don't have those....

It has been way too long since my last post, but a lot has happened in the past month to make me step back and take a look at my life. Question whether I am where I wanted to be or if I've strayed off track...again!

Computer has (once again) taken up way too much of my time. My selfish wants are consuming my mind and taking up the space that should be reserved for God. So I've been thinking about a lot these past few weeks. Asking myself questions, hard ones, and deciding how to react to the situation.

With me, I tend to slip into bad habits all too easily. From on the computer for hours a day, to being so obsessed with weight loss, that God is no longer in control of my life...the world is.

I've pushed my relationship with God, and my family, once again to the back of my mind. But Not for long. I am struggling to get to a point in my life, where my only concern, is that I am not doing enough. That I am not doing all that I can to serve Him and help my family.

I have a name for my problem...it's called "Low Expectations". I expect so little from myself, that I get to the point where my days consist of eating, watching movies, listening to music and playing the computer. The big, important things fall away and then in the end, I'm left with a broken, empty life with no value to it.

I have plans for my future. I want to get married, raise a family and run a stable. Time and time again I am given the chance to prepare for that, but what is my excuse for why I don't? "I'm waiting until we move"

How wrong is that? I had gotten into the mind set that, until we move, I'm going to pause my life. Everything I want from myself, everything I want from life, will be paused. But here's the thing...it doesn't work like that! If I'm on pause, the whole word still goes on with or without me. Whether I like it or not...and most of the time, it's not.

But what does this have to do with low expectations, you may ask? Well, the expectations I have for myself, are so low, that I start to believe that I don't HAVE to do anything. I can lay around all day, and not suffer for it. I can skip cleaning the kitchen because "I'm too tired/busy (doing pointless things) to clean it. I'll do it tomorrow or later."

As my Mother says, "If you keep saying, 'I'll do it later, I'll do it another time,' eventually you'll have to do it. And all those things you kept putting off...are going to catch up to you and you'll soon find yourself swamped with work."

So true...if only it were so easy to break a bad habit. So, here is my problem, I want to get out of my mind set of only having low expectations for myself, but how do I do it, without going in the wrong direction? And giving myself high expectations int he wrong area?

Prayer.

That's the only way. I pray about what I should be doing with my life, I pray that God open my eyes so I see what should be done, BEFORE I am even asked to do it. I must "BE AWARE" of everything around me...and only then...will I be able to successfully live my life the way God wants me to live it.


1 Peter 5:6-7
"Therefore humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you at the proper time, casting all your anxiety on Him, because He cares for you."


2 Comment(s).

Posted by Charlie:

Very true! Be wise with the time which God has given you in your youth. Every little work you do now will pay off in the future

And our Lord will honor your desires to be well pleasing to Him. keep striving to be wise in how you use your time and rest in the Power of your Christ

"Now may the God of peace himself sanctify you completely, and may your whole spirit and soul and body be kept blameless at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ. He who calls you is faithful; he will surely do it." (1 Thess 5:23-24)
Thursday, March 11th 2010 @ 6:02 PM

Posted by Yasutomo:

I can relate myself to you, Alesia. For me, it is so easy to escape from God's higher calling for me by setting "low expectation" for myself. God has high expectation for us and has higher calling. God bless you, Alesia!! Be encouraged.
Saturday, March 13th 2010 @ 8:05 AM

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