I have found out, so many times in my teen life, that just because I am a teen, I am expected to have the same desires or behavior as some teen on the street.
I am eighteen, single, and proud of it! But because so many kids these days are getting into relationships at sixteen, fifteen or even thirteen and twelve, I am expected to be all boy crazy.
Because I am eighteen, I have to decide. Career or family?
If I pick career, then what am I doing on here? Get job hunting!
If I choose family, then get going! I have to find a boyfriend, RIGHT NOW!!!!!!
But what if I don't want to decide right now? What if I want to focus more on something a little more important?
Right now, the only concern in my life, is strengthening my relationship with God.
It may seem odd for an eighteen year old girl to say she would rather have a strong relationship with God then find a boyfriend, but that's how I feel in my life.
And the thing is, I'm not like any normal teen out there. But honestly, what is normal?
Is it normal for a guy to walk around with his pants around his ankles? No, yet in today's society, it is considered that way.
Is it normal for a girl to walk around in skimpy clothing just to get attention, even if it's the wrong kind? No, but it's accepted as normal.
One thing that upsets me about today's living, is the pressures to be normal. Even if you don't agree with what that normal consists of.
But why is it, when you decide to live against the grain, be the opposite of how so many teens behave these days, people think you are odd, or abnormal?
One thing I cannot stand, is the whole stereo type thing. Emo, Goth etc.
Why can't we just be people?
I am not here to judge people, I am just here to give my opinion and share the things I have learned while trying to live my life how I want to live it, not how the world thinks I should.
It is hard, trying to be my own person, not go by how others think I should live, or what they think I should do.
I have been pressured many times into starting a relationship, but the thing is, I am not ready!
I will not get into a commitment, when I am still growing in God.
I also believe that God has one person out there for me, and one only. So I know that I will not start dating until God brings that man into my life. I don't care if it's tomorrow, or in five years. I refuse to be the type of person, that has to go through a dozen failed relationships before finding the right guy.
And in today's society, I am even being pressured to search online for a possible guy. But I know, I would rather stay longer, then look for a guy online. Sure, some people may have had success with online dating sites, but it's not for me.
I also don't care how I meet him, all I know is that God has a time and a place when things will fall into place.
I know I am not ready, but if there comes a day when God decides "You are ready!" then I will not argue with Him.
But until that day comes, I will wait patiently, and trust that God knows what He's doing.